Warning… Sunday deep thoughts. But if it hits anyone else where they’re at, you’re welcome. 😉😘

Something unexpected happened to me at the Dierks Bentley concert the other night.
If you know his song “Living”, you know the chorus goes like this –
“Some days you just breath in,
Just try to break even –
Sometimes your heart’s poundin’ out of your chest,
Sometimes it’s just beatin’…
Some days you just forget
What all you’ve been given –
Some days you just get by,
And some days you’re just alive –
Some days you’re ✨livin’!✨”

I’ve loved this song since it came out, and usually when I hear the part about “some days you’re LIVING” it makes my mind bounce to vacations, days at the ocean, getaways. Normal, right? Those moments are my happy places.
For some reason, this time – every time he sang it – my mind went to days in the OR, in surgery, helping kids get better.
What?!?
No one was more surprised than me, I can promise you. 🧐

But maybe that’s a sign – if your work can be what pops into your brain when you hear songs about living, maybe you’re where you belong.
Not that I’ve doubted it – I’ve loved the OR since I became a surgical tech 32 years ago, and I’ve loved it even more since I came back to it. But every job has those days, those moments that hit you hard & make you question why you do what you do. Is it worth it? Do I have to take this BS or can I just walk away? Am I happy, or just existing for the paycheck? Moments when you wonder if you’re actually making a difference.

I guess this was my answer, shocking as it was. Most of you know I never wanted to be a nurse, and my journey to becoming one was anything BUT the planned trajectory of my life. Even my return to the OR has had it’s stumbling blocks. Boulders, even.
But sometimes your brain has to show you where your heart is – and even when it’s tough, if you realize that your job is part of what makes your days ones in which you’re really “livin'”, then you’re blessed.

And if not? Keep looking, keep working, keep moving forward – it may be where you least expect it, but it’s out there.